OH FUCK THAT

I gave up on no internet month because I’m weak.

No Internet Month

I made claims that I was going to cut down on my internet time but it appears that I’ve spent every single day of 2010 on this darn thing, I’m a failure. As I sat refreshing /v/ for the 100th time today, I couldn’t help but question what the fuck I am doing with my life; here I am, a 20 year old NEET living with her father, no ambitions , no future, and I’m not doing a damn thing about it. I don’t blame the internet for what I am doing right now, but it certainly contributes to it. So here I am about to go cold turkey, I feel kind of pathetic having to resort to this but I guess it’s for the best.

See you soon internet x

Fuck Video Games

Every game I want to play at the moment seems to crash and I have no idea why. Fallout 3, Oblivion and now Torchlight.  I mean, I’ve just started getting into these games properly and now they want to crash on me after about 15 mins playing so I never get to finish any quests. My lack of game choice has given me the chance to play Left 4 Dead 2 a bit more, but it’s so hard to get friends together to play a decent round of versus and I hate playing with fucking pubs.

There’s only one thing left to do… continue with my Final Fantasy marathon. ugh.

Guess it’s a good excuse to post that hot Black Mage cosplayer again!

Sturmgeist Interview

Imhotep has just done an interview with one of my biggest idols, Cornelius Jakhelln. It’s a decent insightful interview regarding Sturmgeist and the recent Finnish shootings. I hope you enjoy it!

OMG 2009

Oh, I guess I should start writing one of those year review thingy mah jigs right? I don’t think I’ve ever really done one before in my life, but it seems like a good idea considering it’s the end of a decade or some bollocks. I would actually write up some entry about what happened during this decade but I went from the age of 10 to 20 during this time, and I find trying to fit in the most crucial 10 years of every person’s life into a little simple blog to be a retarded idea. I may just save it for when I am  famous and I get to publish a biography when I’m in need of a couple of quid.  Anyway moving on, here’s a little summery of how overwhelmingly shit this year has been.

First of all I guess I’ll talk about the more social side, this year saw me going from being a shy, selfish and depressed girl to a slightly confident, slightly less selfish and slightly less depressed lady. I found myself fucking up a massive amount of friendships in some internet communities earlier in the year, I regret hurting some of these people but I don’t regret it happening because it helped push me to realise that I need to disconnect my life from the internet; to finally realise that they should be two separate things. I understand that having a blog seems hypocritical but I wasn’t going to completely pull the plug, the internet is incredibly useful for getting my artwork recognised and for keeping in touch with old friends, I also still like to get involved with communities but I use them as a source of information and as entertainment instead of as a substitute for my (lack of) life. I find it rather fascinating that over 2009 and most likely in the future, I have been turning off the computer and now the rest of the world is turning on, seems I can now escape reality by actually being in reality!

As well as losing friends, I also made quite a few (mostly thanks to the internet of course). The one main community I was involved in was an imageboard called Fighting Amphibians and to put it very simple; I was a right twat. Somehow though I made friends with a bunch of fantastic people in England (and Wales I guess) from there and somehow landed a lovely boyfriend who I foolishly experienced that horrific thing called ‘love’ with and then inevitably lost. While some of our friendships may have fucked up, I have to say the few I keep in contact with are the few people in this world who I truly care about and I may actually shed a tear for if something bad happened. My friendship with the FA crowd lead to a few of us attending some god awful convention in London called London MCM Expo. While the convention itself was pretty boring (Although picking up some weeaboo keyrings and being able to see Craig Charles is always a plus!) the time spent with the guys at Stephen’s house was certainly a lot more fun, it was overall just a pleasant experience for me.

I think this photo sums up the entire weekend.

Moving away from the whole internet bollocks, I found myself attending a few decent concerts this year, a lot less than the year before but certainly much better. One of the biggest and the best was of course the UK Metal festival: Bloodstock Open Air, where I had the pleasure of seeing the fantastic Candlemass and Blind Guardian perform, everyone else was either someone I had already witnessed live and/or didn’t give two shits about. But the best part about the festival wasn’t the line up but instead it was the atmosphere and the people I met, one that certainly needs a namedrop is the fantastic Mr. Joseph McQuade who I can safely say is the greatest person I have ever met. After Bloodstock I found myself seeing Aphex Twin in Manchester, there’s not much I can say about this other than that it was a lot of fun and there was a lot of lazers. The biggest event this year though was travelling down to London on the 9th October to experience the incredibly beautiful Ulver perform at the Queen Elizabeth Hall, I can’t really describe it as anything more than just absolute brilliance; so this little review might be a bit better for you if you’re actually curious about what happened. I was in awe from the start to the end, and afterwards couldn’t believe that I actually just saw them live, this is one date that will stick in my mind till the day I die.

Other than that I ended up going through education for a short period and landing myself a decent part time job as a barmaid. Nothing spectacular but certainly a few things that had a positive impact on my life and me as a person. I have high hopes for 2010 as I have a fuckload of plans to get away and make something of myself or whatever, we’ll wait and see eh? Just thank you to everyone who has entered my life this year, both bad and good, I appreciate you all.

Doomsluts

First two sketches finished. Gonna do the rest this week since I don’t have time to finish the other girls yet. This girl is called Jessica.

Girls who kill ♥

Really loving this video and song. I’m having a proper exploitation film binge right now and this only fuels my passion for it. It’s also inspired a few doodles of Doomy murderous sluts. I’ll post them later.

Young and enthusiastic

I read a terrible terrible comic by “Serenity” today. It was posted on /v/ and everyone was mocking it, and with good reason. But one thing that really got to me is how it reminded me of being a wee lass. I miss having that sort of enthusiasm for drawing, just making up silly comics with mediocre art that have a clique storyline and characters and I didn’t give a fuck about what people thought about them, because hey, I was having fun!

I used to have this really silly generic animu comic called “the six sages”. Imagine Dragon Ball Z, mixed with Sailor Moon mixed with Tenchi Muyo (basically all my favourite anime as a child!) it was a clusterfuck of ideas, but hey I had fun with it!

Look, I still have a drawing of the original cast!
d’awww

I am totally going to have a go at re-drawing these guys, maybe it’ll breathe some life back into me. I’m sure I still have loads of old concept sketches and notes in a box somewhere. yay!

Broken Sword

I promised myself I’d make sure I update this blog regularly, if not daily! But I appear to have failed at this pretty quickly. I’ve not really been up to much that I’ve felt like talking about, and I guess it’s better that I just wait instead of force myself to write about pointless shit.

As you’ve probably guessed already, I have given up on the Final Fantasy marathon for now. I found myself at a point in the first game and it was starting to really bore me, I find myself having to grind like fuck outside of every new town and I’m just not in the mood for playing such a mindless piece of crap. While I understand that Final Fantasy was a good game for its time, I still can’t help but wonder how the fuck this series ever took off.

So instead of that, I’ve been having a run through Broken Sword:  The Shadow of the Templars on the PC and when I’m not playing that I have a few games of Touhou (I’m turning into such a Touhou fag these days, won’t be long before I pick a waifu and start buying useless merchandise). Broken Sword really takes me back to my youth, my sister used to rent it out on the PSX and I’d occasionally bunk off school to sit and help her play it, although I don’t remember us ever getting as far as I have now. It’s still a decent game, fantastic story, lovable characters and JESUS CHRIST IT’S SO FUCKING HARD! I’m quite surprised at how well I’ve been doing considering I’m a very very stupid person who still struggles on Lufia’s deungeon puzzles, ugh. Lets hope I can finally beat it though and then I’ll get onto The Smoking Mirror and then maybe finally complete the whole Broken Sword trilogy.

Also expect some fan art soon. George Stobbart is an amazing character!

Patchouli Knowledge

Had a go at sketching Patchouli Knowledge of the TouHou series. Just a little gift for my good friend Lynchy. Maybe in time I’ll actually draw a proper picture of her! Do you think they’re okay? (personally I prefer the one on the right because I hate drawing anime)